Stop Moving...

Yes... I need the things in my life to stop moving. It does sound very much like asking the Earth to stop spinning, but yet, it is (to me) most necessary...

To say that 2011 is a year of change would be a colossal understatement. Way way way too much has happened, both good and not so good. Regardless, both represents change. I know I sound very ungrateful when I say it like this, but this is how I feel: I am inundated by this whole miasma of shifting plates, never being able to stand still for a moment, not being able to catch my breath, not even being able to see what lies ahead...

I need to depend on God completely...

Too much is weighing upon me, all needing to be accounted for, all needing to be cared for, all needing... needing... needing... gosh! Yes, I know the human condition is all about needs... but I am human too.

I'm going to stop before I really start ranting; regardless of how I feel, this is still a public domain. I shall not allow my own demoralised spirit to spread to others (even though others have no compunction spreading theirs to everyone else).

I am not being noble when I say this; it is a matter of economy... If I fall, I'd rather fall alone.

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