I can only recall two burn outs of any consequence in my life, but I don't quite remember when they occurred.
I do remember that it was quite terrible as I wasn't able to do anything: sleeping just made me more tired, and I was productively at a standstill. Quite hellish for productivity-crazy me!
It is a matter of time, I guess. I should have seen this coming (and yes, I did), but I just ignored many of the signs. Yes, that makes me stupid too :) Oh well, like it or not, burnt out I am... now all that's left to do is to get better.
Which is perhaps a little easier said than done. The mechanics of life doesn't stop simply because I'm burnt out. In typical life fashion, it chugs quietly and steadily, ever ahead. Life goes on...
Still, I need to find some time to rest and recover; maybe I shouldn't blog so much then! I need to re-pace myself if I am to see this production to the end. It is another two odd months to go, and still so very much more to be done.
But it will not do my team any good if I'm gloomy and moody all the time (I'm not there yet, but boy am I getting close!). They have already put up with a lot; they certainly don't need to put up with my erratic moods.
So here I am, trying to save everyone from me! Haha! Amusing idea, but true nevertheless.
More sleep... I hope it is as simple as that. I'm starting to write again, which I suppose is a good sign.
I need to get my emotions under better control; these days, the slightest thing set me off. And I don't like it... it's unfair and unhealthy.
Our roadshows are a few hours away... I know I should be so excited about it. I am, intellectually at least. But my emotions are, shall we say, spent.
Lord, if there's one person who can help me now, it's You :) Best part is: You already have :)
Thank you... I'm off to rest :)
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