Pause to Ponder :)

Right now, I am sitting in my room, sipping a glass of merlot, contemplating eating some chocolates (now that I can) and watching "Star Trek: Voyager" :)
As you can tell, I am certainly relaxed :)
With the stresses of recent projects over, and the successful completion of my "Absolutely! Live 2011" concert, there is just cause for ostensible relaxation :)
I've been thinking about my concert since its conclusion last night :) I can still see it in vivid detail: the stage, lights, the audience... certainly a night to remember!
In many ways, the concert is a milestone for me. On a personal level, it is a crossing of barriers: proving to myself that my idea of a terrific concert really works :) It is also a test of my physical, mental and vocal tenacity... to see if I am able to perform as I have seen myself in my mind countless times over the many years :) I am happy to report that I have done just that... not boastfully, but gratefully acknowledging how blessed I am to have gotten this far :)
Conceptually, the concert was outstanding: we started with two energetic dance routines, quickly followed by a song with a video presentation. Slower songs had beautiful light accompaniment, as well as dance :) After the intermission, the show went into a different mood: light and easy, with an acoustic number in the middle and a fashion show at the end!
All in all, quite a show :)
Although ticket sales were dismal, I have fulfilled all other objectives: I worked with great people; I've put up a great show; I pushed my limits and upped my confidence; I got through a very tough period in my life... and I enjoyed myself :)
I now sit in anticipation of the pictures and videos that will soon arrive :) Chewing on my chocolate (yes, I've yielded!), having exit my stressful period... I am taking this moment to enjoy the serenity of completion, of having the luxury of a few empty moments to keep to myself, and the wonderful opportunity of looking into the future and planning what I should do next... ;)
Keep your eyes here... who knows what I'll be doing next? ;)
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p/s: a quick but sincere thank you to all of you who believed in me; I am a product of your faith :)

7 days... to the rest of my life

At the time of writing, I am tired (to the bones), almost hungry (strange) and mostly frustrated...

Guess there's plenty in recent days to make me tired and frustrated; hungry, I don't know... I'm usually hungry at this time. Back to tired and frustrated... as always: compound reasons.

I was just telling a friend of mine a few days back that I'm feeling very stressed out about my upcoming concert, and he astutely observed that I probably didn't have that much to do (non-concert related stuff, he meant) then (which was 2009) than I do now.

He's right.

These days, I frequently find myself inundated with work, out of breath and out of sorts. Not very good company am I these days either. Sure, I'm just as witty and amusing as ever, but it certainly "cost" more now. Truth is, I'm glad that people buy my little facade; saves me having to explain... Explanations can be tiring, and there goes the thought process behind my 3rd album.

I wish... really wish to get away from everything for a while. And think I must (and I use the word deliberately). I think I've been off balanced for too long, and I really need to take a break, catch my breath, regain my perspective, and maybe, start writing again.

Sometimes, I do wonder if it is worth it. The former "it" can (and does) refer to anything of consequence; the latter "it"... how do I put it? My money? My time? My heart? My soul?

All of the above.

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